Hamlet’s famous quote always struck a special chord with me, and I realised it only later that it was because the famous exclamation was something my mind goes through at every little crossroad, whether it’s at the ice-cream store (should it be a cone or not be a cone?), or whether it’s at the stream selection checkpoint of my life (should it be science or not be science?). And although I’ve already crossed many such checkpoints, I know that I have many more to come, and this is little post will walk you through exactly how a fickle mind sees the world.
- The grass is always greener on the other side – If my mind ever comes to a decision, it immediately starts thinking about the other choice, and how the other choice is better. However, the minute it decides to go with this ‘other’ choice, it will start to see the advantages of the first choice, leaving me gawking and confused while the subway guy patiently waits for me to decide whether I want the mint mayonnaise or not.
- Stepping into others’ shoes – While deciding which road to take to a destination, my brain decides to start thinking like other people. So, in a situation where you would choose the road which is usually not blocked or used by many people, I would think about choosing the busier one, solely because my brain comes to a conclusion that everyone would think about taking the quieter road, leading to that road becoming busy, and the busy road becoming quiet. Do you understand me?
- Weighing the pros and cons, but with a bias – Many a times, I would’ve actually made a decision about a certain situation, like sleeping in and not attending a day of college. Later, my brain will start weighing the pros and cons of not attending that day, but will give extra importance to the cons. So technically, I try to convince myself out of a decision I make. This, however, does end with me skipping the class, but due to overthinking, not sleeping.
- A love and fear for trying new things – If choosing a restaurant is a nightmare, choosing the dish is hell for me. My brain will be equally torn between trying out that new weird sounding dish and ordering my regular comfort food. What if the new dish is terrible? But wait. What if the new dish is even better than my regular? Then I’m missing out on my potential favourite! I think you can now imagine why I usually just starve to a state of inability even when I’m inside a restaurant, sitting at a table.
- Finding crossroads at branches of crossroads (like nested loops, ya know? Don’t hate me.) – A simple example of this would be planning a trip. Deciding the place will lead to having to decide the mode of travel, then the accommodation, the monuments to visit, the clothes to pack ; it becomes a huge tree with infinite branches. And of course, my brain will want to analyse each branch. Thoroughly.
If you could relate to any of the above points, it means you too have been a fickle mind at least once in your life. Fickle mindedness refers to the unpredictability, or constant change in thoughts while making a decision. However, fickle mindedness cannot be attributed to either zodiac signs or ovaries. Contrary to the popular belief, humans think with their brains, so even men can be fickle, and even Pisceans can be decisive. Surprising, right?
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Written by: Arundhati (Computer Science)